Wow you guys….we hit 35 weeks today and this girl could come at any time now. Things are getting REAL. I know I say this a lot in my posts, but I truly don’t know where the time has gone. Just yesterday I was taking those five pregnancy tests (yes five) in pure disbelief. Finding out that you are pregnant is one of those moments in life that can only be described as surreal. It’s funny to think about how in life you say “oh yeah one day I’ll have kids” and you set yourself up with this timeline of when it will happen and it comes and goes. For me, it was always an eventually, but when it finally happened and it hit me that it was my time to do this, I was in shock and couldn’t fathom it. Of course we were beyond happy to be expecting, but I think the hormones were already raging in me because I couldn’t stop crying of shock the next few days after. The other strange thing was that I almost felt scared to tell people. I’m not big into surprises myself, and having this mountain of news and not saying anything right away was ROUGH. We told our families right away of course, but I have no idea how people wait months and months to tell ANYONE. Needless to say, as far as pregnancies go, mine has been going extremely well health-wise which I’m beyond grateful for as I know that it’s not always the case. With only (potentially) a few weeks to go, I’m having those doubts you hear about with all first time parents and then some. My mind is blown trying to comprehend that another human THAT I CREATED will be around for as long as I live and that’s just how it will be. It sounds silly because it’s like yeah…..duh, but it still just baffles me. We’re so excited for this life transition, but a part of me will miss just being a couple. Having that freedom to do as we please whenever. Then I think about how exciting it will be to almost re-live life through another little human’s eyes and show her how the world is (the good and the bad). I’m sure I’ll second guess every decision about parenting as I do with most other decisions, but at the end of the day, what will be most important is for both Chris and I to raise a good person. A truly kind, compassionate soul with a wicked sense of humor. Until then, I’m gonna keep feeling those rib and hip kicks until she’s ready to make her appearance in the world.
I’m not sure if this will be my last bumpdate or not so I’m sorry if it was a little long. I thought it would be important to get a little more raw and real about pregnancy thoughts because I feel like not a lot of people do which is a shame, because it’s one of the biggest life changes you’ll have and more people should be comfortable talking about their happiness, fears and doubts. <3